Sunday, May 25, 2014

They say when you take revenge against another you lose a part of your innocence. 
But I’m not innocent. 
I haven’t been for a very long time. 
My innocence was stolen from me. Taken was the life I was supposed to have. The soul I was born with. The ruby heart embedded in a life full of hopes and dreams. 
I never even had a choice. 
I mourn that life. Mourn the what-ifs. 
Until now. 
I’m ready to take back what was always meant to be mine. 
But every plan has a fatal flaw. Sometimes it’s the heart. 

**Due to the dark and explicit nature of this book, it is recommended for mature audiences only.*

6 Mind Bending 

“They say when you take revenge against another you lose your innocence.”

Someone throw me a lifeline, as trying to write this review, is like drowning in Bang all over again. Before I even begin to attempt to put my thoughts down regarding Bang, I need to get this off my chest… Ready??? What The Flipping H*ll  Just F#*king Happened???? Strong reaction? Overkill you say? Not even close. Bang is a story that will blow you away. Pun Intended. Bang is so incredibly disturbing; it will make you shiver, shake, cry and squirm. The nature of this book is dark and disturbing; you have been warned, entering into this one.
Nina. Where to even begin? I’m not even really sure. Imagine the worst possible childhood you can possibly conjure and then multiply it by 1000. Only then you may begin to understand the unimaginable hell this woman has survived in her lifetime. She exsists, however she is disturbed, and this is putting it mildly. The mind and body can only withstand so much before it begins to fracture. Nina’s mind is a disconcerting and twisted place to spend any length of time, however, that being said, it’s through no fault of her own. Nina’s life has been an incomprehensible nightmare. From the young age of 5 when her entire universe is obliterated Nina has no hopes of a normal life.

“And that’s the moment when you realize that hopes and dreams are as fucked up as the fairytales.”

She is but one of the many complex characters living within this story. Bennett, Pike, Declan. Pike, disturbed and broken, but devoted in every possible way. Obsessed and hopelessly in love. Bennett I loved in spite of everything. He was incredibly devoted to his wife, or appeared to be… Declan. I fell head over heels in love with Declan, from the moment we met. That first encounter was magical. Of all the men in Nina’s life, Declan was the only one I deem as worthy. Every single one of them are vivid, fascinating, and very much alive within the pages of Bang, however this is Nina’s story. First and foremost. Powerful from the word Preface, E.K. Blair takes you as the reader on an emotional, gut turning, mind ravaging journey.  I knew from that moment I was in for it. I turned looked at the hubs and was like, “WHOA”. No joke.
“The heart is a weapon -  a self-inflicting weapon – that if not trained properly, can destroy a person.”

The entire length of Bang my heart ached for Nina, my stomach roiled, my brain struggled to keep up with all that was taking place, all within one very potent, frightening and disturbing read. The author takes us not only into her twisted world, but she refuses to relinquish you once she has you there. You are a prisoner of her words. I have read some truly mind thrashing books, but Bang will truly and honestly *uck with your mind. The plot is incredibly intricate and complex. It is not simply a story of vengeance and revenge, it’s also about love, it’s about struggling to find redemption, about making choices, and it’s about survival and death. It’s about betrayal, and loyalty. Relationships that are truly toxic, and the lengths to which a person can be driven to, when backed into a corner without any hope of escape. Bang gives some of the most brutal and sinister scenes I have ever read. I had a physical and very real reaction to what Nina is forced to endure. Traumatized and brutalized in more ways than I could ever imagine.

“And now I lie here crumbling into a million pieces. I’ll never be whole again. I’ll never forgive the world for this.”

Years later, escape, loathing, scheming, obsessing…

“You will not feel. You will not feel. You will not feel.”

Bang is so many things all rolled into one it’s impossible for me to attempt to describe. It is flawlessly written, powerful, poignant, and consuming. You will be completely bewitched and enchanted by the words on the page, flipping the pages and devouring every word. The heart pounding tension that culminates towards the heart stopping and jaw dropping cliff hanger will leave you breathless, and broken. I was sobbing and inconsolable in the end. I sat there repeating “I can’t believe that just happened, why?? WHY?? WHY??” My husband then asks if the book broke me? Yes. E.K. Blair broke me, how freaking amazeballs is that? I may need therapy and a support group to recover from this experience. I need Echo and Hush right now.
READ Bang, it is one of the very best books I’ve EVER had the joy of reading. 

USA Today bestselling author and International bestselling author, E.K. Blair takes her readers on an emotional roller coaster with her FADING series. A former first grade teacher with an imagination that runs wild. Daydreaming and zoning out is how she was often found in high school. Blair tends to drift towards everything dark and moody. Give her a character and she will take pleasure in breaking them down, digging into their core to find what lies underneath.
Aside from writing, E.K. Blair finds pleasure in music, drinking her Starbucks in peace, and spending time with her friends. She's a thinker, an artist, a wife, a mom, and everything in between.

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